Lately..... quite often, I'm reduced to tears by the people who show up on mats in front of me.
They turn up from all walks of life, they show up (whether they are aware of it or not) with devotion, going through all kinds of things on their journey. They come along with their challenges, their illness, ailments, health, heartache, their joy their bliss!
With their own reasons they come to have me share the little I know about this rich well that is a yoga practice!
The feeling behind my tears is of sincere abundance and a hint of humility with me questioning my own worth in this role.
I can't quite explain, but it's such a powerful feeling, sometimes I think I could burst! So instead I cry ha ha
So to anyone I have ever guided through their practice or inspired on their path! Thank you! from the bottom of my heart, with all my tears! you inspire me and fill me with a this rich sense of infinite purpose!!! I am truly grateful.
Lately..... quite often, I'm reduced to tears by the people who show up on mats in front of me.
(Haven't posted in ages, I wrote this in October last year, In truth I got lost for a little while, but luckily sometimes when we are lost we find the most amazing things.)
It is often easy to stay or be in things for comfort and convenience. But it's important to note that nothing is as comfortable or as convenient, as knowing yourself.
Material possessions, superficial relationships, work that pays ok but is unsatisfying, art work that sells but has no depth. These things can give temporary comfort, can allow us a superficial convenience. However the creative and knowledgeable can quickly learn that convenience can be a trap of uninspired sameness. True convenience resides in consciousness, a place of pure, inspired creativity and freedom.
To have the strength to work against the grain and towards inspired creativity, consciousness and enlightenment that exists and only needs to be noticed through awareness to self is to me the purpose of life and the art of truly knowing yourself.
This awareness and knowing your true self doesn't always make you the most fashionable, the most famous, the richest person with the shiniest of things. It may not even make you the most 'liked'. But we can learn time and time again in life's journey that the best things in life are free.
With knowing and purpose, your direction is simple. A direction of life lived in non-harming, in non-judgment, in truth and creation, will allow you to reside in a place of abundance and contentment, but don't be fooled to believe this will always be found in a comfortable and convenient place. The truth is that comfort is often found in the most inconvenient of places..... yourself.
Sometimes looking at ourselves beneath the illusion of the physical can be very confronting, can be very uncomfortable. But remove the pre-conceived ideas you have about yourself and/or the situation you’re in, then you will find things to be very simple and with that simplicity all you need do is sit there and smile at it. Smile with the confidence to see the perfection in you and all that is around you. In presence you can find this comfort at any moment, in any situation be it comfortable and convenient or not.
If we take time to find this comfortable seat and practice this during our time here in this physical world, while we enjoy and are blessed with the gift of life. We might save ourselves from being confronted one day at the most inconvenient and possibly uncomfortable of places.
Nothing would be as inconvenient or as uncomfortable as getting to your death bed (the final destination on this earth for us all) and thinking to yourself
'Did I add to the world or did I just take?'
I hope your answer at this time will lift you to ultimate comfort and convenience.
Peace Out Jordan
I started my day extra early, 4:30am! I agreed to cover a couple of classes for a colleague with a fractured knee. By the end of the day I had managed to teach 5 yoga classes, I decided to balance things out and get myself on the mat in a class. I went to one of my favorite teachers and my great Friend David Mansfield at Yoga Village. David has this wonderful ability to be very quiet, very calm, and strong, all at the same time. He challenge's me in the ways I need challenging. I love his classes he sets a pace that encourages patience and allows time; he has a delivery that is knowledgeable, detailed and precise without talking too much and has a sweet cheeky sense of humor.
After my long day of running from Bondi to the city and back again, I was on the mat. With David’s guidance I was completely submerged in this moving meditation. We had made our way to the tale end of the class, my gas tank was on the red and I was fading. The poses were becoming more challenging and the holds seemed to go on forever! 'Bloody YIN!' I was saying in my head. I was still, loving the class, in my mind there are no bad lessons, just bad attitudes, but through fatigue my attitude was being tested.
As the class began to challenge me and my stamina began to waiver, the most wonderful thing started to happen. Every time I thought I was going to break, I began to have visions of faces, faces of my students, the faces of dedication, the faces of determination and the faces of acceptance. The faces of complete love and FLY intention!
I won’t name names, but I saw clearly the faces of my FLY peeps. The faces of the guys and girls who come along with super tight hamstrings, the faces of students with severe arthritis. The faces of the emotional lower back pain, the faces going through illness and emotional grief, the faces of the mothers and mothers to be, the faces with the stories that I have been blessed to play a part in.
These clear visions of faces gave me so much more strength; filled my heart and my practice with purpose they inspired me to just keep breathing.
'These people believe in me, I love and respect these people, so they must be onto something, so just keep breathing Jordan. Just feel this. Just do it. You are blessed."
Now don't get me wrong I’m so in love with Balasana (child's pose) and I'm the first to go there when I truly need it. I'm an advocate of surrender, the practice is here to give you time, to be exactly as you are, on any given day, its not competitive or forceful. Its not competitive with our neighbors and especially not competitive with our selves. However the practice is a chance to explore these boundaries and jump the fence occasionally into new unexplored territory, to feel, to see.
So this is my simple blog. It is a Thank You! It is my admiration and my complete bliss!
My life is about the faces I encounter and the stories behind them. Today’s lesson was that behind every face, there have been many long days, but these faces show up. They show up with a smile and they give it their best. Which like Yoga is all, my Mum ever asked.
So a big thank you to all your faces you know who you are! I love teaching you yoga, because of your beautiful face!
Peace Out J-Dog
I've just got back from a nice summer adventure overseas where I got to meet great new people, catch up with wonderful friends, see wild new places and take some really wonderful and incredibly challenging yoga classes. I guess its time I get this blog under way then isn't it? Apologies in advance to the grammar police. I will do my best.
I'm back in Sydney and I'm freezing. I am staying with a good friend while I wait to re-occupy my home as I sub-let my place while I was away. I didn't pack for winter though, in my mind I was going away for winter, and when I came back I imagined the cold would be gone. This is a good insight into how I like to see things. I'm so optimistic that I believe I don't need to check the weather or look at calendars. Things just work out for me and I just have a way of landing on my feet. That is all well and good, and according to the law of attraction, the only way to attract success. However sometimes it pays to plan. But I have found a cozy heater and a nice cafe to sit down and write about where I'm at.
So there is a lot going on back at home and in the world. I don't like to focus on anything negative as I don't find it constructive, but unless you live under a rock, one can't not be aware of the horrible things going on. It is overwhelming! I know I contribute to the wellbeing and health of all my students and the people I inspire through my yoga practice, but I can't help but want to do more! I'm a bit lost, the yoga "community" is constantly challenging me and making me ask if i have a place amongst it. I often feel like I can't compete, thats probably because I don't want to compete. When did it all get so competitive anyway? I obviously love yoga but FindingLotus is so much more than just the Asana practice. I want it to be so many wonderful things. A lotus, after all, has a million petals.
Like everything, these feelings of drifting and questioning my worth ebbs and flows, coming in and out like waves testing me, my purpose and my authenticity. I am hoping the life of FindingLotus can impact the world in a positive way - there is so much that needs a voice and action. There are so many inspiring people doing wonderful things. I keep asking myself "What can I do? and How can I do it?" Most of us have heard the quote "be the change you wish to see in the world." Yes, yes, yes this is the way, but how can I be the change for the poor people drowning in boats off Australian shores, the change for people in countries who are now being humiliated, abused, tortured, imprisoned and even killed over who they want to love? how Can I be the change for the children that go hungry, while the wealthy manipulate the media that they own! to benefit only their agenda! ($$$) and what about the environment and its innocent inhabitants impacted daily by our constant unsustainable lust for consumption. Ahh like Michael and Janet it all Makes. Me. Wanna. Scream! Its so overwhelming! I do not claim to have the answers. But like my dad always says “If you don't ask, you don't get. So I'm asking. What can I do?"
The Yoga practice allows me the space to relieve myself of these overwhelming feelings, through introspection and pratyahara, (the withdrawal of my senses) I teach myself to walk on the sand and leave barely a footprint, to find Atman (my true self) as the Lotus adding to the good in this world.
The Lotus Flower lives amongst the dirty murky waters in the lake, yet somehow it manages to rise up and bloom untouched, perfect, strong, delicate and pure. But I do wonder if the Lotus spends any time while growing, feeling overwhelmed and challenged by its surroundings? Does he try to change the mud or help the plants who can't survive in the murky water? Does he try to stop the fish from eating the mosquito or does Lotus simply not look at the calendar, and the weather? Does he just allow and trust. Does he just feel his way to the top in his own good time?
I guess the murky water, the mud, the fish and the mosquito have their place and are an important part of nourishing the soul of Lotus, and after all the contrast, is what makes it all so beautiful. So by Finding Lotus I have planted a seed. I'm watering it and I'm still looking. I am asking a question. Inspiring others to selflessly make themselves the best they can be, and in doing so cultivating the collective consciousness to impact the world by being the change, by allowing the contrast, content in the trust that the universe has it all under control.
Our role is simply to be our best self, treading lightly as we walk our path on this earth. Understanding with empathy that to have the good in this world we need the bad. Action does speak far louder than words, so instead of preaching and fighting ignorance, instead of using violence with words against violence of ignorant actions, we can instead rise above. Asking a new question. Not 'how can I change them?, the mud, the fish, the mosquito and the murky?' Not "how do I make them all see?" Instead in FindingLotus we ask "how can I change? How can I evolve so that I might see?"
Lotus believes the solution to any problem is rarely found on the same level as the problem. So rise up FLY PEEPS, sit content above the murky, as Lotus and show other seeds FindingLotus how.
Peace Out J-Dog